This may sound corny or you may think it is wrong, but it’s how I feel. And also is a healthy relationship and a good one. I really think that the best way to start a new relationship is to act like it’s the first one. Don’t compare this person to previous people you’ve been with. because everyone is different, and every experience with a new person will be different, too. Act like it’s the first time for everything, even if it’s not. Because every experience is a new one, and it is the first time with this NEW person. Give them a clean slate. And, an open mind. Just because they are different doesn’t mean they aren’t good. Another, point to my theory is: that why rush a relationship to a point where your last one was? because then you miss all the memories of getting there. And also, you rush a relationship it’s easier to get hurt! All I really want is someone I can start new with and take it as it comes. And, someone that I can enjoy myself with and to have new experiences. And I think Ben is a good example of a good boy friend. and I’m so glad that I found him!!!! Wish you the best of luck.
Ben&Colleen
07-05
<3 Colleen`

The bad boy…

He’s attractive, sure, but why? Why are we attracted to the boys that just hurt us? Why do nice guys finish last?

Bad Boys are charming, sweet talkers, and unpredictable which tends to make them more fun. We never exactly know whats going to happen; they keep us on out toes. But, the thins is with this excitement comes RISK!! Eventually, the games that are played end. Why? Because they are no longer fun for the bad boy. And, then we are dumped. Yes, Bad Boys are fun. But, they’re BAD Boyfriends; that’s exactly why they’re BAD Boys!!!

“Personal lyricism is the outcry of prisoner to prisoner from the cell in solitary where each is confined for the duration of his life.”     -Tennessee Williams-

We are all confined to our bodies throughout our whole lives. If you think about it that’s a very long time to be confined to one thing. We go crazy enough when we are stuck in a car or our rooms for to long. But, the thing is we are the only people in the world that truly know what it’s like to be in out own bodies.

We are lucky enough in this society that we have the freedom of expression, beliefs, and speach. Everything that a person does reflects a bit of what they are on the inside.

The way a person acts, dresses, and speaks gives everyone  them an opinion on that person. The thing is since we are all out own person everyone’s opinion on us is different, and not always our own opinion. This is where there tends to be conflict. The thing is if you are comfortable with yourself then you shouldn’t care about others contradicting opinions. You have the right to have their opinions and reactions.

Everything we do gives people an insite and small glimse into our lives. It’s our escape from ourselves. The way we use our containment to still reach out to others and express to them what its like to be trapped in this body.

Finally, February is over! March in my opinion is one of the best months! It’s Ironic though that in order to get to March you have to go through February (the WORST Month)!

In a way that simple idea shows us that in order to have the good in life you have to also deal with the bad. Without the bad we wouldn’t be able to enjoy and value the good as much. Maybe one of the reasons March seems to great is because it comes directly after such a horrible month, and so everything just seems so much better. I personally much rather have to go through the difficult times in order to enjoy the goodness. Then not to have either.

In conclusion, inorder to have the good there needs to be the bad and tough situations to make the good BETTER!

You have to go through February in-order to get through March.

Have you ever felt like something was on your mind, but you don’t know what? That’s the problem with me the majority of the time when I’m bugged or in a certain mood I can’t seem to figure out why I am. And, when I do know I can’t seem to find the correct words to explain it to people.

 

People expect me to be able to explain myself: my actions, words, feelings, and moods. Yet, how can I do that when I don’t even know myself?! Another problem, I sometimes expect people to automatically know what’s wrong with me, and I get more annoyed when they don’t. I’m not sure why I act like that, but I try not to. Just at times my extinct come out, and I can’t control my emotions and actions very well. =/

 

They’re maybe many reasons as to why I act this way. Some people may blame my high emotions on the fact that I’m a Scorpio, others would just say it’s the way I’ve been raised, and yet, I think it’s just the way my brain and emotions operate, NOTHING else. Unfortunately, that means I’m the only one responsible for those actions, and I’m also the only one who can change them. Which involves a lot of work and self-discipline. Hopefully, though, I can change myself for the better, and maybe even finally understand my motives.

 My point of this being, to help encourage people with similar problems, that you’re not the only one with that problem. And, you can try and fix it. Though, it may be hard, just try it’s for the best. And, maybe even you will be able to find your true self.

Any teenagers? maybe even just remembering that point in time? Well, why is that we always have those moments where we just have a rush of different emotions. Mostly thinking about the following:

-The fast lane     – falling    – alone    – needy    – unknown

+ Some days we just feel our life is going to fast. We have no control. School, chores, homework, sleep, exc. We live in the fast lane. Emotions, school, and our general life; everything happens all at once and we never know what to excpect. We just feel like we need to have things to calm down, and just take control again. Stopping to hang out with friends or catch up on our favorite TV shows.+

+ Then, there is the time when we have the rush of the falling feeling. Our life is a down fall of emotions where they just snowball into a huge problem. One thing after another. Nothing can every go wrong without another problem after it esculating the delema. =[ +

+ THe times we crave others attention a) the opposite sex b) friends or c) popularity. I don't understand why some days we feel completely independt and comfortable with who we are, how we are, and what we do. but, then things change and we feel we despritely need people.+

+ Days we are completly satisfied, but then others we feel our needs aren't complete. We excpect them to be filled by people, yet, we don't know what we want or need. So, how do we excpect anyone to help us? We can't control it though. =/ +

+ Then there are days we just feel like crap. For no reason. It's very confusing. +

why are there so many emotions involved in growing up? not to mention there are many more that I haven't written about. (i have no time to write them all out) I wish to think that they go away, but sadly I don't think they do. Yet, grow to become more complicated. That's why we have friends and family to keep us alive. =] yay!

 Colleen`